I had an interesting experience today. Someone I knew as an acquaintance became my friend. It is very interesting how one genuine experience can raise the bar of a relationship. Dr. Phil always says, " When someone shows themselves to you believe them." My Great Aunt used to says, if someone shows you their heart, show them yours and you will have a friend for life. I have had this happen many times before, as I have many people for whom I deeply care about in my life. But not until today was I consciously aware of the events that were occurring in real time. So it was interesting and refreshing at the same time.
It has been a long time since I have been in a place where I could open my heart and not have it pour out pain and anguish. So is this a sign I am moving past my pain, or it is just not throbbing anymore, I don 't know. I sort of think it's like filing, for so long all my emotions were just laying around on my desk, in the floor, stuck to ceiling, and over whelming. Then they were just in piles in front of me. Now they are behind me in a filing cabinet. I hope someday to move them to the back room, but for know the filing cabinet is OK, because i can easily open and shut the drawers when needed.
This next week will probably be a difficult one, but i hope it will not be too bad. June 29th would have been my 9th anniversary, but it won't be, it will just be another day. This is what breaks my heart these days. The good days we no longer get to celebrate, the dreams we will never accomplish, and the path that just stopped. God is good, he will supply the peace, as I supply the faith.
Have a good night
Tabby
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